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Monday, June 26th, 2006
9:33 pm	CALE-SAR So, as many of you know, but few of you have responded, I was in Yosemite this past week. The week was long and exhausting, and instead of finishing unpacking like I'm supposed to be doing, I'm going to tell you all about it! Saturday: I wake up around six in the morning to do the last bit of packing since my boss so kindly allowed me to work until 10pm the previous night. I grab one last map off the computer, since I have never driven to Yosemite before and haven't the slightest idea how to get there. The drive was long and tedious thanks to my mad navigation skills but I had a few new CDs to listen to so it wasn't all too horrible. I arrived at about 1:30pm, an hour after I was supposed to be there, but alas, I cannot find the campground. I drive around for the next 6 hours (no, I am NOT joking) before deciding to give up and go home. I found the area I was supposed to be, but it was just a picnic area! The only other part had "restricted access" on it and I couldn't go any further. So I went back outside Yosemite valley to refill my car (4 dollars a GALLON!) and was about to take off, when I ran into a ranger who I had asked directions from earlier in the day. She insisted I had gone to the right place so I decided to give it one more try. I get there and another ranger is there locking the gate into the picnic area. I tell him who I am and what I'm here for and he tells me to go on through the restricted access area, that's where my camp is. (CALE-SAR could have been a little more specific about that!) So anyway, I arrive in camp at about 7:30pm. Matt, (the guy who invited me and told me about this originally) greets me almost immediately, so I'm glad I'm in the right place. Funny, since I saw him only rarely throughout the week. I've now missed dinner and am rather hungry, but I got there just in time for a tracking class! I kind of zoned out, but it was still interesting. Tracks are everywhere on everything! All you have to do is have the eyesight and hand-eye-coordination of a brain surgeon to find them! So after the class I got to eat an MRE (meals-ready-to-eat) for dinner and then set up my tent in the dark. In the middle of the night my cot collapsed, so that was rather annoying. The Mosquitoes were restless. Sunday I was late for breakfast, since I slept until almost seven. After breakfast we got to try the tracking exercise and I met some strange new people and was exposed to folks of all ages. We did some small exercises around the valley, but nothing to strenuous. That day is kind of a blur to me for some reason... The Mosquitoes were regrouping. Monday: My cot collapsed again! Annoying! We did a round robin exercise where each of the five groups did five quick classes one at a time. I was in team 3. I learned how to pack a day pack and build a litter, as well as some radio skills, though a lot of that I already knew from work. We then did a mock search where we had to search for a strange 12 year old girl who had a fetish for tearing cardboard (shrugs.) We practiced quick searched and grid searches and found playing cards (which she also carried) as well as pieces of cardboard with cryptic notes on them. The girl was discovered by one of the other teams with a "broken" leg and we all had to use our newfound litter skills to carry her out of the marsh and back into camp. It was interesting. The Mosquitoes were hungry. Tuesday: We did more round robin exercises in the morning, this time emphasizing on knots and some basic medical skills. After lunch we went to a rock climbing area and instead of climbing, we got to learn more knots! Then we drove outside the valley to a helipad and watched people repel, and then got a quick briefing on helicopter safety when on a search before they had to take off to fight a fire in Santa Barbra. (cool stuff). We got the rest of the briefing by a ranger named Greg (awesome name!).We didn't hang around camp much that day, but we did get to take showers in the village finally! The Mosquitoes were ravenous! Wednesday: We got up bright and early to go hiking! And not just quick hikes around the valley, we now got to walk up the many steep mountains Yosemite is known for! I went up the Mist Trail for some reason, one of the steepest there. I got nice and wet when we by a waterfall, but then we got to collapse and eat lunch at the top. The squirrels were so used to humans they'd come right up to you and try to steal your food! We had a missing person report while up there (real one this time.) We finally collapsed at the bottom of the trail somewhere, after using a very nasty bathroom. Strange, for a place so muddy and covered with flies to have motion sensor toilets and sinks… Anyway, we hung out in the villages and ate pizza for the rest of the day, and I got to wash clothes. I told “The Mouse with Green Cheese” story, it seemed to go over well. The Mosquitoes were calming down. Thursday: Thursday we actually did get to go repelling, which was fun. We did navigation exercises for the rest of the day, and I finally learned how to use a map and compass! Another day that seems a blur, huh… to be honest, that whole week wreaked havoc on my memory. The Mosquitoes were making a comeback. Friday: We learned about a type 3 search, in which we all get into lines and crawl on our hands and knees, digging for evidence. In this case we were looking for a citruscidal maniac who had murdered five innocent oranges and left their body parts scattered everywhere! I almost vomited several times, yes, the search was gruesome. In the middle of the search we were called away to a real search! That was so exciting! Until, of course, we found the young woman (my team found her) and realized she was actually Michelle from back at camp (which also goes to show, no matter where I go, what kind of new people I meet, I will always meet a new Michelle). So it wasn’t real, ah well, it was still exciting. After lunch, we did this cool table top search exercise where we were given a map and limited resources and told who the person we were looking for was and where she disappeared at. It was fun. The resource management was a bit like a video game! Also, bears were in the area and seemed to be coming closer to camp. Never did get to find out who the citruscidal maniac was though, oh well. The Mosquitoes were at war with us. We slapped and they bit. Casualties were in the dozens, dozens! Saturday: Big search day! Woke up early in the morning and went looking for our subject. We all new it was a mock but it was much tougher then the previous ones since we now had to walk uphill lugging search equipment with us to find her in a rocky area. After getting her into the litter, we now had to carry her back down. When all was said and done, we had a big feast to celebrate the end of the week. After eating we helped load the truck with the majority of the equipment. The Mosquitoes were firmly in charge. Sunday: We got up bright and early to eat and then finish loading the truck. Some were staying behind to do a search that afternoon, looking for 20-year old human remains. I was exhausted, and wanted to leave as soon as possible. It was a long, fulfilling week, but I couldn’t wait to take a real shower and use a real toilet again. Strangely enough, on the ride home, I didn’t take one wrong turn, and I made it all the way home! The Mosquitoes lost their food source! So it was… interesting. I’m not sure if I’m going to take the rest of the classes and become a full member though. Hiking really isn’t my thing… but I think I could do it, if I gave it my all. It would be nice to do something important and meaningful for once with my life. It all feels so meaningless sometimes. I’ve never had a lot of friends, and even this week at camp I got to know people, but never really formed strong friendships. I almost did, but a bratty 13-year old made it his purpose to make me look like the most horrible, selfish person on the planet. Lord, it was just like Elementary School all over again… me telling the truth, everybody else, siding against me. So now I am trying to better myself anyway I can. I want to become strong, confident, brave, and wise. Then maybe, someday soon, I’ll be good enough that people will start to like me again. Goodbye for now. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
5:21 pm	Having fun with Phone scammers So, while sitting in the guard post at work yesterday, I get this random phone call that has the number blocked out. "Huh, I wonder what that means." I said. I immediately hear this middle eastern voice come over the phone and I know EXACTLY who it is, this guy who kept harassing me a few months ago. I thought he had given up, but apprenttly not. I decided I would get him off my case forever. Here is the transcript of the conversation (to the best of my memory) Me: Hello? Him: Hello, is this Gregory Nelson? Me: Yes. Him: Gregory Nelson who lives at (address withheld to protect ME) in Gilroy, California? Me: Uh, yes. Him: Gregory Nelson who has a bank account at Bank of the West in Gilroy, California? Me, growing somewhat concerned: Um, yeah... Him: Mr. Nelson, I am pleased to inform you that you have been randomly selected for a government grant of $5,000! Me, rolling my eyes: Really? Wow. Him: Yes sir, congradulations. All you need to do is first, give me your zip code. Me, a bit surprised, stupidly gives it, then realizes his mistake: 95020 Him: Uhhhh... 95030? Me, siezing my oppurtunity to make up for my stupid move: Um, yes! That's correct! Him: Ok sir, now all you need to do is- Me, rudely interrupting: So how was I randomly selected to recieve this generious gift? Him: You were randomly selected from the tax payers in your area. Me: Ah, I see. Him: Yes sir, are you excited? Me: I sure am! Him: Yes sir, all I need you to do is give me your bank account number and your router number so we can deposit the number directly into your account. Me: Really? Him: Yes. Me: Huh, that doesn't sound very wise. Him: Excuse me sir? Me: Well, you're asking me to give a complete stranger my personal bank information over the phone. Him: Well, how else are we going to give you your money? Me: Well, apprenttly since you know exactly where I live, you could mail it to me or give it to me in person. Him: Sir, legally we cannot do that. We must have your bank information. Me, smirking: Where are you calling from? Him, hesitating betfore answering : Um, 241 First Street, Washington D.C. Me: Wow, that's awfully far away. This call must be costing you a lot of money! Him, ignoring me: All you need to do is give me your 9 digit credit card number and routing number. Me, ignoring HIM: So what's your phone number? Him, I can almost hear him smile, apprenttly he thinks he "has" me: I will give you that information as soon as you give me your routing number and- Me: Rudely interrupting again: This sounds an awful lot like this scam I read about on the net, (and my own personal experience with these people) right down to guy with the middle eastern accent. Him: I assure you, this is not a scam, this is real- Me: If it's real, then how come you won't let me let me know what your number is so I can check on it before giving you such private information. Him: This is all very simple! All you need to do is give me your routing and- Me: Hey, you know what? If you call this number again, I am going to call the police and have them trace this call to find out who you really- Him: You are a mother f****r! You F****** idoit! Me: Hey, you just made my list! *click* Me: Hello?... Hello? I hang up the phone. Me: Huh... what a jerk. *** The conversation actually went on a bit longer than this, he repeated himself a lot and I repeated most of my arguments to him. But this is as good of an attempt as any. So yeah folks, if someone randomly calls you asking for your bank information, don't give it out! I shouldn't have to say it but there must be SOME people out there doing it. Cheers! Current Mood: pleased (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 30th, 2005
2:16 am	Advent Rising: A Masterpiece? I remember when I first heard of this title. It was a quick preview after installing Fallout Tactics with some vague action sequences and dialogues and it was called "Advent Rising: Dark Waters" or something like this. It looked kind of amusing but not paticularly interesting. It wasn't until a year ago that I heard of the title again, and it immedaitely grabbed my attention. I looked it over and it looked very fun if it could be sucessfully pulled off. So I waited. It came out for the X-BOX in May, but I don't own one so I had to wait even longer for the PC version to come out. I recall watching the early reviews on G4TechTV. The first one I saw praised the game and gave it an almost perfect score. I was happy. The plot looked epic on scale and totally worth my time. Then I saw another review on another show. This one would not stop whining about how bad it was. So I thought "Hmmm... well, the PC version is only going to cost 30 dollars, so I'll give it a try." Bought it in September. I bought the DVD-ROM version! Oops! Best Buy wouldn't take it back, so I had to live with it despite the fact that I had no DVD-ROM drive. So Christmas came on Sunday and I got a DVD-ROM drive! Hazzah! I installed it on Monday, started up Advent Rising, expecting the worst AND the best. It was niether, but MUCH more the latter than the former. This game is something most gamers won't understand: It's FUN! Everyone wants a Halo clone. I swear, I am so SICK of hearing about Halo! It's a great game, yes, but there are better games out there! People seem to pretend video games didn't even exist before Halo! And besides, Half-Life 2 is MUCH better than Halo so *sticks out tongue* Ahem, anyway, back to Advent Rising. It's not the best game ever made, and it doesn't claim to be. It is a very cinematic experience. It's like playing a movie! Later in the game, you select an enemy, you go charging toward him, jump in slow motion while doing a flip and blast him to pieces with your gunand/or mind powers. Before landing, target the next enemy, unload on him, and if you weren't able to kill him, run up to him, beat the crap out of him, jump on his back, and break his neck. There is NOTHING cooler then watching a puny human jump on the back of a ten foot tall alien and just WRENCH its neck around! Slow motion was done in the Matrix games you say? Yes, but Advent Rising actually does it WELL. The game is cinematic, the storytelling is EPIC, the music is wonderful, the characters are real and engaging. Those who like mindless action with no structure, play Doom or Quake, this game's plot grabs you and sucks you in. You use this character to fight and you WANT to fight. You see who is responsible for the suffering he's encountered, and you want to make them pay. Yes, the graphics are a tad bit old fashioned, but so what? I, for one, would much rather play a game that loads this quickly and still manages to look good without having to wait fifteen minutes of loading every few steps so the mud on one of the character's boots will look realilistic! When I was younger, this is how I had always dreamed games would become. Not just something to do, but interactive storytelling. Great game. Not a perfect game. Just good fun. I want to encourage everyone to pick this gem up. The reviewers thrashed it so bad almost no one bought it and now they make not the sequels (this is the first in a planned trilogy). Did I mentioned the script was written by Orson Scott Card? I NEED to see how this story ends! It would be like watching the first Star Wars movies and just ending it there! I normally don't get this passionate about a game. It's just. That. Good. Pick it up! I'll be here. Go now! Are you back yet? Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Advent Rising soundtrack! (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 17th, 2005
3:25 pm	More boredom, gotta go to work! Click here. Take the quiz. Post your results. ( See gregnelson's results. ) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
6:08 pm	Stolen from Emma which was stolen from Keetsie gregnelson is a Giant Moth that drinks Human Blood, has a mean Left Hook, Screeches when Angry, and is Poisonous and Very Slow. Strength: 3 Agility: 4 Intelligence: 6 To see if your Giant Battle Monster can defeat gregnelson, enter your name and choose an attack: fights gregnelson using Strength Agility Intelligence Current Mood: hyper (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 27th, 2005
2:20 am	I am ADAMA!! You scored as Capt. Lee Adama (Apollo). You have spent your life trying to life up to and impress your Dad, shame he never seemed to notice. You are a stickler for the rules. But in matters of loyalty and honour you know when they have to be broken. </td> Capt. Lee Adama (Apollo) 88% CPO Galen Tyrol 81% President Laura Roslin 69% Commander William Adama 63% Lt. Sharon Valerii (Boomer) 63% Lt. Kara Thrace (Starbuck) 50% Number 6 44% Col. Saul Tigh 38% Dr Gaius Baltar 31% Tom Zarek 25% What New Battlestar Galactica character are you? created with QuizFarm.com Sweet! Nice to see Baltar and Zarek, two characters whom I despise the most, resting on the very... very... bottom. Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Superchick- Beauty from Pain (Still loven this song!) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
12:23 am	What a tragedy I rarely EVER do this about general news. But this story just wrenched my heart. I speak of the recent events in Pennsylvania, where 14 year old Kara Beth Borden was "kidnapped" by her boyfriend, 18 year old David Ludwig, after Ludwig shot and killed her parents, leaving her 13 year old sister, Katelyn , and young brother, David, alone. Katelyn hid ustairs while her brother went across the street to call 911. The fortunatly, Kara and her boyfriend were found the next day after a high speed chase. The question now, is was Kara a willing participant, or a victim? The parents didn't want David seeing her because of the age difference, and that's about it, though I'm sure there was and is more to the story. These kids, all four of them, Kara, her sister and brother David, and her boyfriend David, were homeschooled Christians. They were quite active on the web and found their journals very quickly, to find out a bit more about them. Very interesting stuff, I found very quickly that they were all active members in thier church, especially Katelyn. All blogs and entries stop before last night, with nothing else, for obvious reasons, being this is where this event happened. I'm not sure if Kara was doing this willingly or not, God I hope she wasn't, no one could do something to their own family, could they? I mean, you have those kids who are abused and moelsted all their lives and may eventually rise to kill their parents, but that doesn't seem to be the case here. But what would make her do it?? And then I come to the boyfriend, David. I have a few choice things to say to David: What the HELL is wrong with you?! You son of a bitch! How COULD you! Did you do it out of love, is that it?! Huh? Is that why you killed these two loving parents and made their children orphans?! Was it a moment of passion?! Were you int he right? Did you THINK you were in the right?! Is your girlfriend "happy" with you?! Is this what she wanted? Are you free to be "together" now?! Was your love all "pure" and "deep" and "stuff"?! Damn you're sick. What the HELL kind of Christian are you?! And now to the younger sister, Katelyn. I read this girl's xanga journal. Wow, it is rare that I meet someone that age who loves the Lord so much. Every single post was giving glory and praise to God. Heh, her final interest just has her saying "Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus" all across the borders, from how happy she is, how much she loves God, how grateful she is for His love and blessings. The final entry was Novemeber 9th, 2005. 6 days ago. Somehow I don't think Katelyn will be posting a new entry for a while. Hang in there Katelyn, remember Job. What this boy did to your family was HORRIBLE. I don't know how far your sister's involvement was, but just make sure to take care of your little brother, he needs you more than ever now. Jesus loves you dear, and I pray for you daily as of now. Stay strong, my dear sister in Christ. God bless Current Music: "Beauty from Pain" -superchick (Comment on this)
Monday, October 3rd, 2005
1:10 am	More random quizzes! the Ham (28% dark, 53% spontaneous, 21% vulgar) your humor style: CLEAN | SPONTANEOUS | LIGHT Your style's goofy, innocent and feel-good. Perfect for parties and for the dads who chaperone them. You can actually get away with corny jokes, and I bet your sense of humor is a guilty pleasure for your friends. People of your type are often the most approachable and popular people in their circle. Your simple & silly good-naturedness is immediately recognizable, and it sets you apart in this sarcastic world. PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Will Ferrell - Will Smith The 3-Variable Funny Test! - it rules - If you're interested, try my latest: The Terrorism Test My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 6% on darkness You scored higher than 72% on spontaneity You scored higher than 12% on vulgarity Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid Huh, I'm surprised, I thought I was may more dark... *watches someone fall and seriously hurt themself... laughs his head off* Current Mood: bored Current Music: Joy Williams: Surrender (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 18th, 2005
11:23 pm	Only having two people on my friends list sucks... Click here. Take the quiz. Post your results. ( See gregnelson's results. ) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 12th, 2005
11:30 pm	I NEED to get out of here! I love my parents, don't get me wrong. But when they are my only source of human contact outside of work it gets ANNOYING! Only people I can sit down and talk to is them, which isn't that bad I suppose, I but I REALLY need someone around my own age! It is sooo boring here in Gilroy... So I have decided to change my major to Crimincal Justice and move into a dorm once I get to SJS, somewhere between next fall and 2010, the way things are going. Need some independence, need some friends my own age who actually talk to me! I've never been good at making friends. I'm very good at saying the wrong thing at the wrong time.. or the right thing at the wrong time... or the wrong thing at the right time... or something. My tendency to latch onto people I get along with really turns them off apprenttly... I miss my drugs. Hopefully this insurance from work will go through so I can have cheaper access to them. As I said before, I miss school. Need some human contact, NEED IT! And not human contact in the way of "Greg, get back to work!" Or me telling some kid to tuck his shirt in/shave/go downstairs and remove that dark undershirt before entering the park. Or asking people to please open their purses and bags so I can dig through them looking for food or weapons. (Cuz I LOVE digging through femmenine hygene products to get to that can of mace at the bottom of the back.) I don't need a vacation, I don't care about getting time off, I just need people! I'm going crazy! Well... gotta go, 8 hour shift tomorrow starting at nine. P.S. I now have four free Bonfante Garden tickets. I get two free tickets every other paycheck. I don't need them, even if I wanted to go on my days off I can get in for free. So, anyone want them? Just PM me. And PLEASE give me some human contact!! Is it just me, or does the "lonely" star-face look exactly like the "sad" and "depressed" star-faces? I'm not sad or depressed (though the latter is a close call) at the moment.... hmmmm... need more original star-faces. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Nuthin (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
2:14 am	GTA is evil, EVIL! OK, I finally must address this subject. The subject is Grand Theft Auto: San Andres, and the fall of society in general. First, obviously, it is indeed true that there is a code in the game that allows you can unlock an interactive sex scene. But that's not my problem, my problem is the PARENT'S reaction. They buy this game for their kids, or let their kids buy it, then get all bent out of shape when there's something objectionable in it. And who do they blame? Themselves for their lousy parenting? Oh no, they're innocent victims. The real culprits are the video game industry for misleading parents into a believing that a MATURE rated game where you steal cars, traffic drugs, run people over in those cars, beat up hookers, shoot cops and pretty much any mixture of those things would have something OBJECTIONABLE in it like a sex scene. Un-frakking-believiable. No one pays any mention to the also newly relased, Mature rated title, God of War which has a sex scene during the normal course of the game. (As in, no secret code, you get to it during the course of the game, so I've been told many times by various people.) Why no outcry from this game?? Bloody-stupid parents, I've dealt with them before at century theaters. "I brought my kids into this R rated movie and THERE WAS A SEX SCENE!! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!! I WANT MY MONEY BACK!!!" Bloody idoits... In the immortal words of Bender: "Have you ever thought about turning off the TV, sitting down with your kids, and hitting them?" The breakdown of society I mention is the fact that parents are basically letting companies and organazations decide what's best for their kids, instead of using their own judgement. It really pissed me off today, when reading the comics, I read Foxtrot (one of my fav comics) and it had Andy telling Jason that she was going to monitor is video game playing because GTA proved that video game companies "can't be trusted." What can't they be trusted with?? They gave a violent, vulgar game with nudity and sex an ADULT rating! Ok, so they didn't give it an "Adults Only" rating which is the equivelent of an NC-17 rating for movies, meaning it's basically porn. But GTA ISN'T porn! So it shouldn't get the AO rating! Look at me! I'm defending a game I don't even like! But seriously, no matter what I feel about the game, it's being treated very unfairly by parent watchdog groups who can't even be good parents! Parents. The ratings are there for a reason. USE them. If your child tricks you somehow into buying the game, (and I know how that happens, haha) blame them or yourself, not the people just trying to make a living pawning off this crap. Don't make game/movie/music companies do your job for you, because they won't. Heck, I remember when games had NO ratings, and they just had to play it by ear. Guess what? You can't use that excuse anymore! Ok, enough ranting for now. Sorry for bad grammer/spelling, long day at work and I'm reeeeally tired. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Maybe I'm a Lion -FF8 soundtrack (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 21st, 2005
11:47 am	Too tired for a real update... so here! The \\ Last Cigarette: never Last Alcoholic Drink: last fall at a wedding Last Car Ride: home from work tonight Last Kiss: january Last Good Cry: can't cry like I used to, almost had a good one a week ago Last Library Book: ...dunno, never go the library. perfer to just buy books Last book bought: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince Last Book Read: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince Last Movie Seen in Theatres: War of the Worlds Last Movie Rented: Angel season 5, final two volumes Last Cuss Word Uttered: sh*t Last Beverage Drank: cheery pepsi Last Food Consumed: chicken strips at KFC Last Crush: this cute blonde who works in another department at Bonfonte Last Phone Call: mother wondering where I am (was at work) Last TV Show Watched: X-Play Last Time Showered: this morning Last Shoes Worn: black nike cross trainers Last CD Played: music CD? some 4Him CD, can't remember which one Last Item Bought: food, earlier today Last Download: some freaky thing Adam sent me Last Annoyance: lady at work who was mad at me for doing my job Last Disappointment: too many to name... Last Soda Drank: cheery coke Last Thing Written: hand-written? "2208: clocked out" followed by my sig Last Key Used: g Last Words Spoken: Good night Last Sleep: this morning some time Last Ice Cream Eaten: sandwich! Last Chair Sat In: black computer chair Last Webpage Visited: Livejournal, before that Mugglenet CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS! Current Mood: blank (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 8th, 2005
1:12 am	Feels like a rant is coming on Everythings falling to pieces... again... So mad at my self... so mad at everyone else... damn, I miss my drugs... they at least kept the pain back a little. I seem to be losing friends I had, and the new ones aren't all they're cracked up to be... (Cept you Emma ;) )I've been trying so hard to get rid of this pain in my soul... this failure... this disease... but I can't. It's got a strong foothold in my heart, and it's never going away... I'm bouncing back and forth on topics here... I always seem to make my friends upset with me somehow. Some little word or something... baaah. I don't get offended easily, but other people do. Therefore I wait and watch them, see what they find funny, and do likewise. And yet, I still seem to press some button. I have one person insulting me in a friendly way, which I don't appreciate, but I try to take it in good fun, and then I return the insult, and suddenly I've like, said the worst thing possible. Ever see that Simpsons where one person puts a snake in Moe the bartender's drawer, which jumps out and bites him several times. Everyone has a good laugh. Barney then asks Moe to smell his flower, and when Moe bends over, Barney lights his shirt on fire. Everyone has another good laugh. Moe asks for some sugar from Homer, who unscrews it, another prank. Moe pours the sugar for his coffee which spills all over the table, and everyone turns and gets mad at Homer. "Look what you did! There's sugar all over the table!" "Yeah, we were just playing around, but you had to go and go too far!" Then they ban him from the bar. Anyway, my point is that is the story of my life... And on to more problems... My Back up harddrive up and died last night. I've tried to extract all the files, but most came out partially complete, leaving me with lots and lots of broken files... again. Of course, since I stupidly assumed my D: drive could never fail me, I put all my new stuff there and didn't get around to backing it up. So it's gone now! Sigh... why does this happen every time I start to write again... Schools pissing me off, not that I'm in it at the moment, but trying to get back into it is becoming a pain. I wish they could just download the stuff into my brain like in The Matrix. Gaaah! I can't concentrate! I don't care if these drugs corrupt my system, I want to be able to concentrate long enough to learn something dammit!!! Trying to get new health insurance, but something tells me that will probably not work out either. The forces of the universe are arrayed against me... Could God help? I don't see any reason why he should, being I blatantly disobey him every chance I get... I keep trying to trust in Him, that as long as I believe things will work out for the best, because He has my best interest in mind, than they will. But you know what? Nothing ever does! No matter what I do. No matter how much effort I put forth, I also completely totally fail at everything I try! Ptsh, except video games... which I'm only slighly better at then the rest of my life. I don't even play them as often as most people think. I can no longer enjoy games like I used to; I tend to get bored of them rather quick. Can't even enjoy something real...Any spark of happiness that comes into my life is immediately sucked away... And because of my OCD, I am constantly reminded of stupid stuff I have done. I don't need anyone to put me down, I do plenty of that myself. Sigh... I wish the Air Force had accepted me, then at least I could be out doing something. But nooo... I'm a security guard at Bonfante Gardens... That's been fine for the most part, BTW. Today is my first day off in a week in a half, and I haven't been enjoying it much so far. My constant failures keep getting in the way of my joy... I also keep wasteing my hard earned cash on useless crap I don't need... I just want a little happiness... that's all I ask... not the fake happiness I keep trying to pull around myself. Something real, that I can touch and feel... man, that was weak, haha. I wish I enjoyed the taste of beer... Sigh... my poor files. I think I'll just give up writing. Everytime I get something good out of my depressed head, some horrible computer problem destroys it. Perhaps it is a sign... Currenttly reading: I, Jedi (Yes, I like Star Wars books. Wanna fight about it?) Current Mood: Horribly depressed Current Music: FF7: One Winged Angel (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 1st, 2005
10:05 pm	Another pointless quiz instead of actually updating! ~*~Result nr 10~*~ Your power is: Time Control Explanation: You have the ability to freeze, push forward or go back in time. In good purposes it is used to prevent bad deeds, and the opposite for evil purposes. As a person your emotional level has been on hold. For one reason or another emotions has reduced and now you aren't so full of life. And of course, this does not sadden you since you could care less. Sometimes though you can be hit by emotioal waves inside but you block it all out. You don't search for something that could make you happy since you have no hope in that area any longer. People probably see you as annoying because you're not involved and just stand there. You probably don't have that many friends either, and you feel like you are with them because that's what you normally do. You stick to your habits and don't appreciate changes. Negative aspects: One day all emotions are gonna surface again, and that day will be very painful. Instead it is more wise to start up the emotional level bit by bit, so it won't come as a big chock. What Power is Compatible With You? brought to you by Quizilla This totally speaks to me! Right on... I just got off a 12 hour shift. Tired. Going to bed. See mood icon for more details. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Monday, June 20th, 2005
9:25 pm	What rock am I? I was gonna write a long article about my adventures as a Bonfonte Gardens security guard. But then I decided to do more "filler" with another quiz! You are the Obsessive Compulsive disorder rock! ::Which rock personality disorder (from the Zoloft commercial) should you have? (Results contain pictures!) brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: satisfied Current Music: Advent Rising: Koroem (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 5th, 2005
11:59 pm	My geek rating Your Geek Profile: Movie Geekiness: High Gamer Geekiness: Moderate Geekiness in Love: Moderate Internet Geekiness: Moderate SciFi Geekiness: Moderate Fashion Geekiness: Low General Geekiness: Low Music Geekiness: Low Academic Geekiness: None How Geeky Are You? If listening to "Wierd Al" is geeky than I dont wanna be cool! I got the job BTW! Rejoice! Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
3:45 am	Night of the insomniac... Ah once again, nearly four in the morning and I am still up. I was reading for quite a while. I almost finished two Rogue Squadron books in under a week! I'm proud of me! I'm rereading them because I was very young the first time I read them and the plots were a bit thick for me, but I'm doing much better now on my second time through. I might possibly read more tonight (this morning) before trying to sleep again. I ran out of my sleep pills (their not really sleep pills, their anti-depreses that help me sleep) a few days ago and they had to call the doctor's office to get more! Hopefully this doesn't mean I'll have to go in for an appointment this week. Not that I mind going to the doctors that much, but the clinic is in Sunnyvale, and that's a pretty long drive for them to tell me "everythings fine, here's more drugs!" I have an interview coming up for Bonfonte Gardens on thursday, hopefully I'll have my pills by then, so wish me luck everyone! I, heh, REALLY need this job. *says in a desperate voice* I need my health insurance back! Gonna try to sleep again now, night all! Current Mood: bored Current Music: NOTHING (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 27th, 2005
2:00 am	I think a spider egg hatched nearby... I was in the bathroom, washing my hands after completeing my, erm, business, and looked down briefly to a see a good sized spider looking back up at me! I than woke my parents up with the sounds I made. My mom killed it for me... I would have gotten it eventually! As soon as I had stopped shaking. Spiders seem to have an awfully difficult time crawling out of sinks I've noticed. Anyway, it looks like the same type of spider I've been seeing recently. A few weeks ago when I was playing Vampire the Masquerade (the computer game, not the LARP)and my character was exploring a haunted house. To intinsify the effect, I had all the lights out except for the glow of my computer screen, stuff was jumping off the shelves and hitting me. (In the game, not in RL) and I was starting to get freaked out by all the constant moaning. (Also in the game, not me.) When something big had jumped out, a spider began falling from the top of my computer shelf and dangled right in front of my computer screen. I let out the girlest scream I've ever heard... Yes, I know how that sounds. Anyway, this guy in the sink may have been seeking revenge. The other day I killed a spider in the bathroom floor and left the body there, as a warning to the others. Their breeding an army, I know it! Current Mood: jumpy Current Music: Star Wars Ep 3: Battle of the Heros (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
12:46 am	Boredom squared I miss school... Just got a chance to get more health insurance, gonna cost too much though, so no deal. I am destined to be another person who "slips through the cracks." I wish I had a job... Been trying to write more, my story got rejected from elfwood because of some minor problems. Some of the text was red for some reason and they wanted me to translate the Latin I put in the story. I don't want to translate the Latin, it takes away from the story, so I have e-mailed and complained. (I'm good at complaining!) So I'm sitting here waiting for their reply. I have plenty of time being I can't send out another ticket until the 30th, thanks to their new policy. It is a wise policy, but I wish they'd let me resubmit sooner since they rejected the last story! Anyway, someone I haven't talked to in an awful long time just IMed me, so bye for now! Current Mood: jubilant Current Music: FFX-Final Battle (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
1:03 pm	Good news, bad news, and more good news, and some bad news. Star Wars episode 3 is only a day away! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I've been watching the previous prequels the last two days and I shall watch the Clone Wars cartoon, which I taped last saturday when they did the marathon, tomorrow. All to get me ready for the final Star Wars movie! (almost can't contain his excitement.) And I just found out, CBS cancelled Joan of Arcadia. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Curse you CBS! It was just getting really interesting, and you can it to make way for more stupid CSI clones! A pox on your firstborn! But on the plus side I finished my new Chronicles of Adrick story last week, and just got it back from my editors, so its all ready to post on elfwood. But unfortunatly, elfwood is down again! Bah! Hopefully it will be up again soon so I can post for my waiting public! (I'll have to post to remind some of them again, being it HAS been a year) So yeah, I'm still extremely pissed at CBS. This isn't the only good show they've cancelled. Burnination will come to them! Anyway, I'm watching Buffy at the moment, watching Kennedy flirt with Willow. (Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww......) I hate Kennedy, I think she should have died in the final battle instead of Amanda... and pretty much every other girl there, even the annoying ones. She could have been their sacrifical lamb! Bah! lousy CBS... Current Mood: cranky (1 Comment |Comment on this)